
Tuesday, March 30, 2010

never attend school today because sick and vomiting blood ..
guess my last sick came back ..
check my temperature and it was 39.0 ..
guess how high ..
todae actuaaly got npcc .. but i cant go as im sick .. dont think that i never attend school because have npcc .. simply not in my mind ..
im really sick .. teacher called my house to ask how my health ..
and mum said i had a high fever ..
currently missing abg ..
when can we combine into one family ??
missing u badly ...
todae dad's birthday and im sick .. wth ??!! ..
btw happy birthday dad ..
boring never attend school ..
will be msging fadz to ask her whether got homework or what //
i got to go .. will need a long rest to recover .. tmr will be going to school as i wanna study and dont want to miss my lesson ..
i miss classmate .. :(
bye
Labels: when can i meet him ..??
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Tuesday, March 30, 2010

Sunday, March 28, 2010








yesterday had a bad dream about abg .. guess im missing him ..*tears rolling* ..
when can u be beside me and ur joking with me ??
i miss our fighting .. i miss our fun together ..
kak yana .. will be seeing u in few weeks time ..i missing u ..
i dream that abg left me behind ..i dream that many times ..
meaning (DIED) .. aww ,.. no .. ( touchwood ) .. may that won't happen .. abg .. hope that u are OK inside .. will visiting u sooner .. miss you !
heyho ..
dead blog ?? yeah is dead so im waking this blog :)
3 april will be visting abg at JURONG EAST (televisit) ..
but i not sure im going ..
because either abg's friend(abg king), dad or kak yana going ,,.
mum and kak yana is already permanent but only confusing about dad and abg king ..
if dad never work on saturday .. he will be going .. so abg kings turn will be the next visit .. but if dad work on saturday, abg king will geta chance to go ..
enough about that ..
im getting tired of blogging ..
unfortunately i will still blogging in no time .. see first ./
sports day are coming .. luckily im not in any event accept shot put ..
but its over ././
speech day are also coming and i will get a prize ..
yey .. i love prizes ..
may i pass this year and get bursary .. whee .. spent the money !
at class .. got bully by this two girls ..
"insert name"
tired lah .. saket taw ..
two vs one .. not fair .. must have double ''f''
but nevermind as sari have a problem and she wanted to share with fadz .. and fadz got no time for me .. but i will still understand her .. no negative thinking ..
she is my kakak .. no fighting over this ..
Labels: may that dream wont come back
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Sunday, March 28, 2010

Wednesday, March 24, 2010

Im give up of waiting for u ..
give up .. easy way that i let u go ..
sorry if i never spoke the true to u about this but u already know ..
and u ask me to go and see u and said to u what are my feelings ..
but u know girls right ..
but when i think twice and take a step back ..
i knew i cant love u for this age .. i scared ..
u need not need to know whats the reason .. form now on ..
im single and unavailable .. and i loving this ..
sorry .. know u are free from me .. bye2 ..
a.k.a puteh ..
tc ..
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Wednesday, March 24, 2010

Thursday, March 18, 2010
just now in a hurry because last minute kak yana msg me saying that she cant tag along with us to visit abg ..
i understand her situations because she have been working ..
nvm ..
just now force mum that i wanna go visit abg ..
and atlast my wish is granted ..
whee ..
when arrived at that place go in to the room ..
abg face like angry ..
dont know y ..
he see kak yana dont have and he start to think negative but i already explain to abg . and may abg hear me and not his prison friend ..
abg ask whether we got post any magazines or novel ..
then we said yes we have post for u magazines ..
then abg said .. novel mane?!
then mum said novel pade kak yana ..
his face turn angry because we never follow want he wanted ..
then to make his angry go away ..
we do some joke ..
ahahahahaha ..
sorry in a hurry ..
byebye ,,
tc
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Thursday, March 18, 2010

Wednesday, March 17, 2010
wtf ?!! tmr farid's turn to visit abg ..
eh does anyone understand how much i miss abg ??!!
wth sia ..
then after farid who ??!!
dad or me ??
walauway !!
cant stand this anymore ah ..
abg ... eventhough i cant visit u but i can still post u a letter ..
so this time is their next time is my turn to visit u ..
getting pissed off !!
but u have to be patient waiting for the letter ..
and we gonna post to u some readings ..
no HOT MAGAZINES allowed ..
:)
Labels: when can i meet him ..??
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Wednesday, March 17, 2010

Tuesday, March 16, 2010

Omg ... please stop controlling my life !!
mum .. when can u stop doing this ?!!
fed up sitting at this home just to hear u quarreling with me all the time ..
if beloved abg is here .. he surely get irritated by your mouth because u like to [in Malay] mintak something that can make worst of ur children life in future ..
stop that nonsense ah ..
im getting pissed off ..
stop your mouth by saying that word ..
feeling like running out of this house .....
eeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee !!
feeling like i wanna to swap with abg .. let me be peace inside ..
idiots sia ........
better still no need to born for me if i know your mouth and your attitude like this !!
stress!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
can stopped all this ?? !!!!!!!!!!!!!!
yes i know all the bills my father who pay it ..
ape pilih kasih sayang ehk ??
the small one like farid ..
he play the computer 4 hours to 5.. never say anything but when it comes to my turn .. u keep quarreling with me !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
when i wanna buy my own computer usong my bursary ..
u say dont waste money ..
eh are u being fair ??!!
malas ah nak layan ..
im waiting for going back to malaysia ..
i will ask my grandfather to talk to my parents that i wanna school there ..i wanna stay there ,,
as if i care that the studies at there are worst than singapore ..
nvm who care as long as i get peace in my life ..
i will do it ,
currently forcing my father to release me to go malaysia by my own !
i wanna go there .. dont stop me ..
getting pissed off staying at here ..........!!
abg, u should understand my feelings now as i can understand ur feeling when u get scolded my mum everyday when u are here
:( ..
Labels: cant be boader
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Tuesday, March 16, 2010


i miss belove muhd fauzi
i miss belove kak yana
aww .. meet them soon ..
18 march 2010
will be my turn to visit abg ..
woohoo ;)
Labels: dream me
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Tuesday, March 16, 2010

Sunday, March 14, 2010

im looking forward to school reopens ,,
as i wanna bully banana ..
I adore
Nurfarina as Banana
Khazirah as Dora
Fadzlina as Tuna
Fauziah as Popiah
Rohaidirasari as Sardine
Dyana as Kiwi
Ismail as Sawi
Azizi as Grape
i adore them so much
i love them so much
i keep them like treasure
as i dont wanna be seperate with them ..
i dont wanna fight either ..
trust me :)
Labels: friends for life
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Sunday, March 14, 2010

Saturday, March 13, 2010


just now go to lavender to clooect passport ..
muke ... yucks .. but okeh lah :) ..
not much post for todae .. bye2
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Saturday, March 13, 2010

Friday, March 12, 2010
will be posting but not much ..
later gonna meet sari at her house and off we go to chinese garden for our cross country ..
may i be the lower top 20 ..
ahahah .. i love u lah [a] ..
good to see u in school ..
and the happiest thing .. i got my result and i had all pass .. yey .,.
dad u owe me something .. and u must give me what i want .. is a must ..
i want to balek kampong thats all i want .. not more than that ..
can2 ??
please ..
kk .. bye .. :)
Labels: yey .. i pass
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Friday, March 12, 2010

Thursday, March 11, 2010

ALA SISTA .. IM SORIE ... COULD U PLEASE FORGIVE ME ?
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Thursday, March 11, 2010

Tuesday, March 9, 2010

taking picture is my game and my hobby .. see above .. many kan ?? i know ..
just now lepak with azizi, ady, daniel, nas, ismail, dyana ..
best .. just now never go npcc for some reason ..
yey .. and unfortunately ..
we gonna miss our papabear until 30 march because he is going for reservice ..
okeh 3t1 will be missing u ..
last but not least ..
i would like to annouce to the people who i care and love ..
dora and banana .. u 2 are lembek so face the fact ..because me and fadzlina likely to pronounce as DOUBLE 'F' .. is stronger than u 2 ..
and to my kak yana .. i know u will be seeing my post one day .. i want u to come here .. faster and no postpon because i missing u when u are about to go back on the last day u came to my house ..
i want to see u .. felt lonely ..
and for the boy whom i love and i had a tattoo of his name in my heart ,,.
i am happy that we already starting to spoke to each other ..
i dont care wheather it severally or what but the thing i want from u is that i want u to spoke to me about ur feelings .. dont keep silents ..
and for belove abg .. next visit will be ME ..
WILL BE ME AND WILL BE ME !! .
dad .. please dont ask me to sit at home again because i also do have feeling and u know that siblings cant be separated and if it does ..
we must sent our misses to the love ones and let them sent to us back ..
u know what i mean .. dont know .. go and learnt it until u know to the people who are reading my post ..
and abg .. i hope u will be changing ur behavior ..
im seriously talking and i felt sad but what to do when it was too late .. the thing i should do now is wait for the next visit and wait for ur return to this familiar ..
i will wait and none of my words will come out saying that i ghate u .. no .. so dont think negative .. u are my siblings and my belove 1st brother .. so i love u in what ever happens and ur family will always be there for u when u need us .. so please be patient ..
im gonna sent u a letter sonner .. waiting for all to write and we post together .. so u can get all of that in one envelope .. and u do not have to wait for 1 month ..
so i gonna end my post because its time for me to get sleep on this time .. bye2 ..
love u for the people who i care and love ..
muah ..
:)
meet sonner ..
and sayonara ..
Labels: love my admire ..
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Tuesday, March 09, 2010

Saturday, March 6, 2010




helo ... just now met fadzlina ..
lepak .. talk about my admire ..
talk about her admire ..
fun ..
oh ya .. just now im very upset ..
i cant go visit abg .. my forth adeq go .. shit .. upset ah ..
i missing abg to the fullest right now ..
dad .. next will be ME ! ..
no farid .. no fazirah .. only me ..
pls .. and im happy because abg has my letter with him now ..
whee .. give my day a peaceful day ..
abg says he dont want iphone 3G but he want money ,..
ouh .. naugthy abg ..
nvm .. money is not impossible to get right ..
abg .. ur wish is granted ..
ur little sister will be giving u money .. and post to ur bank .. no problem ..:)
just now kak yana tag along with mum and go to my house ..
wow .. my missing to her atlast real .. and she is wearing something called jacket but not that .. i dont know the name ..
im jealous .. is very nice .. then i take photo with that nice jacket ..
i want one .. ahahah ..
and her pair of shoe is also branded ,.. omg ..
deep inside .. i wans thinking ..
she work in hotel .. wow .. and her salary would even be much .. above $500 ..
omg ..im jealous kak yana ..
blanje me can ??
heheehe ..
just now somebody called me and it was nenek ..
she ask me wheather i want to tag along with her go kampong .. then .. ofcause i want !! ..
this 11 march .. and dad has giving me permission to go ..
but the problem is ..
i wanna renew my passport on monday .. or tuesday ..
but im schooling and the passport will not be ready in just one day but it takes one week right ??
dad says to me .. on monday tell my teacher that i will not come on the next day .. but i have npcc shoot ..
palabuto .. sial ah ni cca .. takleh tgk org senang .. idiot ..
and on 12 march 2010 .. i will be having cross country ..
may i go or not ??
but i think i will not go as i prefer going to kampong than the stupid cross country ..
i will see first and if not .. i will force my familiar to go kampong on the march holiday .. yey ... may they want to ..
i missing him badly .. i missing belove abg badly and i missing kak yana too ..
for him a.k.a puteh .. will be seeing on school days ..
for abg a.k.a casper .. will be visiting him on 18 march ..
for kak yana a.k.a yanasmall .. will be seeing her as soon as possible ..
01062011
will be abg's day to get out of prison .. whee ..
faster :)
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Saturday, March 06, 2010

Friday, March 5, 2010



helo kwn humans ..
just now lepak at class with ismail,dyana,me,fadz and sari ..
very fun .. who join us .. u will be laughing too much just now ..
i draw a sensored picture .. ahahah .. not sensored but alittle bit .. draw his name at the whiteboard .. a.k.a puteh ..
weird name right .. yaa i know ..
just now team khazirah lose .. yey .. team fadzlina and fauziah win the bullying wrestling .. they owe us a blanje .. yey ..
we are strong and not lembek .. wheee ..
but khazirah .. im sorry that i have injured your hand .. just a small blood .. no worries .. who ask u to dare me .. huh?! ..
hahahah .. kan da tawu my prangai ..
but we two have much fun right .. no bullying no fun right ..
i know ..
u are my best laugher partner ..
i love to bully u .. u make my day taugh !!
we will meet again on monday ..
for my admire ..
i will be waiting for u ..
will .. i stick to one person that i love and that is u ..
**
im gonna miss u because i cant see u this week end .. err ..
nvm just endure ..
for abg and kak yana ..
tmr will be visiting abg and i will get to meet kak yana too .. whee ..
as i miss them lot ...
miss2 them .. dream about them make me edging to see them .. quick ..
i wanna see them ..
abg wait for me as u gonna be shocked and know my true side ..
my true attitude for now ..
going to post leeter for u soon .. im collecting like a story ..
hahah ..
im gonna end my post .. bye2 ..
p/s .. i miss puteh, belove abg and kak yana :)
Labels: must be mine
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Friday, March 05, 2010

Thursday, March 4, 2010







they are my baby girls .. i love them soo much ..hey .. in a rush .. i gonna post photo because my baby khazirah asking ..
okeh kaz ..
p/s: i miss abg and kak yana .. saturday gonna meet abg ..
bye
Labels: vivo city here we come
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Thursday, March 04, 2010

Wednesday, March 3, 2010

hey kwn .. hmm .. miss my old hair .. just get my hair rebonded ..
btw not going to post much .. sorie ,, because i having a sad day and lonely ..
just now lepak with .. azizi,izzat,ismail,daniel,nas,farhan,fadzlina and farina ..
fun but lonely ... im just waiting him to talk to me ..
isn't difficult to talk to me >?
i know u are shy and i shy too but we are humans and we are given a mouth to talk .. i love you and treasure u until its a gold for me ..
in my heart i have erase the old name and now i have tattoo of ur name ...
talk to me ..
im crying of boys and im just wasting my tears down the cheeks ..
no more wasting time .. i have to be brave and talk to u about this matter .. y are u keep silence to me and not to everyone ...is just me ! ..
tomorrow i will be talking to you .. may i be brave ..
help me .. tear rolling .. i cry over boys .. what a shame ,,,
please talk laa .. dont make me stress just about u ..
no one can understand my feelings .. i got the same hurt as fadzlina ..
im suffered alot .. msg u ..
u never reply .. i swear i will not hear any advise from anybody because u are just ruing my life .. sorie to say .. fadz i dont need ur advise .. sorie ...
because ur advise just make me feel stress .. is not making me feel heaven ..
i feeling like hell because i whos the one who carry that problem but irt is ur idea ..
i regret ..
kak yana and abg is not with me .. problems geting to much .. i guess i must change myself to be a evil person .. may i ??
meaning .. i wanna smoke,
i wanna change myself ..
may i do that??
agree with me ??
no one wants to help me and what for i be like this ?? ..
im going to change myself .. im going ..
to people who care for me .. im sorie because i making this ..
this saturday im going to meet abg .. i want .. no want can stand in my way ..
father .. now my turn to visit abg ..
i want ..
and for kak yana .. meet soon ... love you ..
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Wednesday, March 03, 2010





when can i meet u two ..
when can i feel my freedom ..
when can i visit abg ..
when can i meet kak yana and her love for me ..
i miss all that ... meet please as soon as possible .. i love and i keep missing u !!
i dream about u and i want it to be true ..
♥ou are my admire baby :)
Wednesday, March 03, 2010

Monday, March 1, 2010

will not be posting very much .. boy .. u realise .. and i feel shy to talk to u and to face u ,.. aww .. u getting sweet .. is good that u realise .. anything just beep me .. i love u ...
love u sooo much ..
meet tmr .. i miss u badly because i for get to bye u when i wanna go home ..
seriously im not going to fall in love with anybody accept u !
muah .. love u boy !!!
Labels: i adore u soo much
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Monday, March 01, 2010